My list of commissions is huge but I have no muse or motivation to do any of them. I just want to do personal art when I feel like doing art in the first place. I can't even see straight anymore because my life is crumbling around me in pieces. There really is no other way to say it but.. My mom died, and I watched it happen and I couldn't save her.
It's been three weeks and the heartache is only getting worse. I feel as if I can't do anything right, even hold a conversation without pissing someone off seems to be a challenge. I don't want to do art. I don't want to do anything. I just miss my mom.